. . .oUT oF cONTROL n tHE wORLD jUST wONT lET mE sLOW dOWN. . .
I printed off the E-mail Garrette sent me and laid there for an hour reading it over and over again and bawling. I don't want to hurt him, that's the last thing I'm aiming for... but I just don't feel the same for him. And what I found most upsetting about that is I can't figure out why not... aside from all the Drew feelings. But Garrette never faught with me. He got upset a few times, but it was totally understandable as to why. And Yea, he's hot. And he's funnie. And he understands most of what I say... and the shit he don't he just goes with it cuz he knows there no use in arguing about it. And I know if I was with him he'd worship me and be everything that I really need right now. BUT Behold none of that seems to matter. I just don't want him to hate me when I tell him I can't be with him... maybe if I run with the whole 'I can't do that to Brook' thing he'll believe that's all of it. *shrugs*
I had McDonalds for lunch. You're jealous.
This was almost pointless. But My eyez burn, so Imma go lay down. Latah.