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. . .wHAT tHE hELL, wHO cARES?. . . [06 Sep 2001|06:31pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

Ok. Extremely... not really pissed... just annoyed, yea. First off, and I don't care who the fuck reads this and gets all pissie with me -- Serina and Julie, in my opinion, should never be Homecoming Princess/Queen Canidates as long as they're in OG. That won't happen... but good gawd you big retards. This isn't a campaign. If you want to run around asking/telling people to vote for you -- Run for STUCO or a Club Officer. Serina ran around during first hour saying she had no competition and that she was the prettiest and asking people to vote for her and blah blah blah... uhm, yea, hi, bullshit. Julie has been asking people all week to vote for her. She asked me if I would vote for her, I flat out said no. It's not RIGHT to ask.

Maybe I'm being a little Biast..,but Sam deserved to win more than any of those girls that were nominated. She's prettie, extremely smart, funnie, athletic and most importantly she's sweet as hell. Sam has ALWAYS been the type to care more about others than herself. Oh, and like someone who will go unnamed (they aren't in our class) said... She was the onlie virgin. That's an asumption, but *coughs* Anyway, Heather would have been a good canidate - she didn't want to win though, and she does get kinda bitchie. Crystal would have defeated the whole Princess Tradition, but it would have been kewl. Julie, blahk. and Poor Ashley. =( She would have been good too.. Anyway, YAY FOR SAM YOU RAWKS.

*snort* VOTE ME FOR HOMECOMING PRINCESS NEXT YEAR! *snort* Or not...I wawna be Queen. lol I'M KIDDING.

Oh, Sam said afterwards she REALLY wanted to be Princess but she didn't want to ask anyone to nominate or vote her. See. Look. So sweet.

Here's who I predict got Nominated and all for the other classes....we'll see....
Freshmen - Lindsay Russel, Jaqulyn Gladson, or Daniel Hunter
Junior - Amy Gooden, Rebbecca Marshal or Amanda Larson
Senior - (I think we get five...and I don't know who was Princesses except Amanda so yea.) Brook Russell (YEA BROOK! lol), Jaquie Herman, Devon Luff, Erin Baker, Sammi Carins, Brandy Cranford, er Jessi Sticken.

*shrug* I'm bored yo.

VMA's in 20 minutes. Eat it bitches.

I happen to enjoy Britney's preformances. Were I her and had her bodie... I too would dress like that ON STAGE and in photoshoots... I'm not sure about this orgasm thing I'm hearing about...but...lol. Yeah but I wouldn't dress the same around my friends and family and whatall...but whatever works for her. She rox ok. And the more I listen to this damn song the more it makes me wish it were mine. lol

I got a phone card to call Drew, but he signed off. Pssht. Fine.

I miss Peral. =(

Melanie is bitching because Morgan got STUCO rep and not her. Bite the fucking curb. Gawd. Morgan's speech DID suck, but I've known her forever and I know she'll do a nice job with Sam in representing us.

My mouth still hurts. I think I'm gunna go lay down. Latah hatahs.

Nick's watching my movie rite now. =)

<3 tRACEY

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. . .tHESE aRE tHE tHiNGS i cAN dO WiTHOUT. . . [05 Sep 2001|07:09am]
[ mood | weird ]

I don't feel good. Currently contemplating going to school. Did you know my stupid journal shows up a million and five times on selected computers in the Computer Lab? I HATE YOU DONT READ THIS AT SCHOOL. Ok, its fine. I don't care. *twirls* Headache. Need to do hair. Kiss my white ass. I'm in a bad mood. I have a zit. =( Grant Hi. Nick Hi. Jonathan Mwah. DREW GET ONLINE. Ok, I'm gone. MWAH MWAH AND MWAH.

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. . .iF tHE pARTiES wHERE yOURE aT tHEN lEMME kNOW. . . [05 Sep 2001|02:06am]
[ mood | calm ]

...Boy this love we got be golden, and you know you got me open. Since the day we started talkin, you and I've had this special little somethin'. When I wake up in the morning, boy it would be you callin'. Since we met my phone bill be doublin, but you know that money aint a thing. With who Me? The one and only, c'mon. Now let me deliver this properly, so the world can see that I, ain't that type of girl. And why should I make my boy cry? Can't deny this boy I met was real fly, but it's you that puts me on a natural high. So I, just walked on by saying my oh my. Ain't gunna let no others start troublin, lose someone like you... you must be buggin'...

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. . .aND i nEVER wAS tHE sAME aGAiN. . . [05 Sep 2001|02:00am]
[ mood | blank ]

K, day rundown quickly cuz I'm bitchie....

� Got my parking pass, got it on my car...080 babie. I'd never been happier to have a damn sticker in my life, it was saddening.

� The Video in FACS pissed me the hell off. No family is like that. Nothing is ever resolved that easily.

� I walked around like a lost puppie without Jonathan.

� I discovered Jarin is extremely sexie. Mm.

� I voiced my hatred for Science in Biology, then I made fun of his book and he laughed. It was a whale and you all fucking know it wasn't a mouse!

� We got a free day in Spanish, Billy and I speant it in the back corner of the room sleeping.

� I love Coach P more and more as each day passes, the man is a genuis. If only I'd had a teacher like him for every class all these years... I'd be smart cookie.

� Z finds it amusing to poke my side. I hate being touched.

� Ben has decided I am by far the funniest Tracey alive. I'm glad we finally have that cleared up.

� Pepper has descended from our lunch table. Fine. *pouts*

� James rubbed my back while Billy rubbed my head. I'm so spoiled. Mwhaha.

� Nick walked me to two classes, one was totally out of his way. He-HE.

� Jonathan didn't come in until 5th hour...

� Before 6th hour he was standing behind me while Nick stood at his locker beside me. It was ackward. I do not like this. Grant saved me.

� Grant is looking more and more like Garrette each day. I love that.

� 5th hour sucked. I hate English this year. =(

� Mr. Borland asked me to marry him, he then totally dissed me by saying 'Of course after a month you'd probably change you rmind.' Fucker.

� Casey and I ate a whole bag of Life Saver Mints during Typing. We were minty fresh.

� Jonathan came in during 7th hour to talk. He just sat there while me and Casey made narcotic comments.

� I went to Mattie's house after school with Rowena to make signs for their campaign. Weena and Mattie for Your Sophmore 2001-2002 Student Officers, k? K kewl.

� I ran over her tree as I backed out. lmao

� Fighting over what to do has been going on in my head all day.

� I miss Drew. =*(

� Jonathan had football practice til 8, he called me at 8:45 and I was asleep. Tuff luck.

� Nick came over to see if I was feeling better around 9:30. How sweet.

� I think Jonathan thinks I'm mad at him. =(

� Did I mention missing Drew? He's a lot less complicated.

� *stares at Buddy List* Drewwwwwwww =(

� VMA's Thursday. *glows*

� I haven't ran nor have I done crunches or anything else.

� I haven't had pop in 24 hours either. Good girl.

� I ate a saled today. Rawk on.

� Useless babble is getting repetitive. I'm going to bed.

Ni NiTE!

<3 tRACEY
one of these days imma pull my head out of my ass and realize, but until then ill continue gasping for air.

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. . .hEY, mUST bE tHE mONEY. . . [04 Sep 2001|05:45pm]
[ mood | discontent ]

Just checking in... not in the mood to type much, maybe later. Huge headache, probably a side effect of kicking the Caffine. I mite have to get some Caffine pills if these keep up. Don't feel like running. Went to Mattie's after school to work on Campaign signs for her and Rowena. Avoided Jonathan as much as I could today, was easy since he didn't come in until 6th hour. Lots of fighting going on in my head as to what decisions I should be making. Need to get the SAT/ACT program for the comp., sooner the better since the first testing is on the 9th of October. Blah, I'm gunna go lay down.

J - call me later babie. I'm sorrie =(

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. . .tHEY sAY yOU kNOW wHEN iTS rEAL. . . [04 Sep 2001|07:02am]
[ mood | worried ]

I forgot to get my parking pass. I cannot sleep because I am worried about this. How fucking gay. Someone call me. =*( Jonathan has his cell phone off and I don't wanna call his line cuz it sometimes wakes his little sister up and she's whiney and ew.

Drew should get on-line. Yulp.

I really wish sleep wasn't a nessacary essential to everyday living. It's such a waste of my time. Oy.

Tomorrow's... er I guess, Today's Shedual...

6:45 - Get up.
7:10 - Leave for School.
7:15 - Get Parking Pass, Put on car.
7:40 to 2:31 - School
3:00 to 5:00- Run.
5:00 - Shower.
6:00 - Tae Bo, Crunches, Etc, Etc.
7:30 - Bed Time.

Going to bed at 7:30 will varry, but... starting with this until I get into the swing of things... I probably won't be on-line as much. Which is good. I mite change some things... depends how quickly results show and what all.

Who am I kidding? I'll pass out due to being tired three minutes into Running. *sigh* I really should go to the Dr. about this shit.

Jonathan gets done with Football practice at 8 tomorrow. He'll stink, so he'll have to run home and shower... so he wouldn't be able to come over until 9. *sigh* Football. Woot Woot. *twirls finger*

I enjoy the company of guys. Why? Cuz they aren't slutty, they don't squeal, they're 20 x's better at sports then any girl here (Aside from a selected few...), they don't like music cuz 'He's soooo hott', they know how to keep their fuckin mouths closed, they don't go 'Omg I liked him before you!', they tend to refrain from calling me a whore, you can talk about anything with them and they don't care... girls tend to act prude or like they aren't interested in 'gross things'. So, in closing... there are about four girls in the OG area that know what the fuck is up and don't act like the average girl. We. Rawks.

And Now, a song....

fALLiN - Nsync
I don't know how, I don't know why, but girl it seems you've touched my life. You're in my dreams, you're in my heart, I'm by myself when we're apart. Something strange has come over me, a raging wind across my seas. And girl you know your eyes are to blame. What am I supposed to do, if I can't get over you and come to find you don't feel the same? Cuz I'm fallin, fallin, girl I'm fallin for you. And I pray you're fallin too. I've been fallin, fallin, ever since the moment I layed eyes on you. Fallin, fallin, when I layed eyes on you. I've been fallin, fallin, fallin. I lose my stare, I lose my ground, I lose myself when you're around. I'm holding on for my life, to keep from drowning in your eyes. Girl what have you done to me, to make me fall so desperately? To think that I don't even know your name. How am I supposed to live, if I can't get over this? If you decide that you don't feel the same. Cuz I'm fallin, fallin, girl I'm fallin for you. And I pray you're fallin too. I've been fallin, fallin, ever since the moment I layed eyes on you. Fallin, fallin, when I layed eyes on you. I've been fallin, fallin, fallin.

Eh, there's more but I'm lazie. I like that song. I'm sure I've posted it before. Oh well. You'll live.

I found a thing I did a few years ago... well, 3rd grade... weighing the pro's and con's of 'Going out with' Matt or Jared. Matt won, I'd like to add. Man, it used to be easie eh? 'Well...Matt likes Red and so do I...so I'll go with him.' That was my closing statement. Nice eh?

Found a 'journal' I kept from 6th grade. This you may remember was when I was infactuated with Luke for quite sometime, went out with the crazie kid from my church for like two months, and i gg to school. lmao bye.

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. . .i cANT iMAGiNE LiFE WiTHoUT yOU bY mY SiDE. . . [04 Sep 2001|01:46am]
[ mood | content ]

Tyrese is one sexie man... damn. Yulp.

Jonathan called my cell phone, it was on silent so I didn't answer... he left me a message though, playing "Lately" in the background. *glowing* So, it's only been since Friday he told me how amazing and everything I was... but I get awfully attatched to being worshiped awfully fast. I really need to go ni nite. I'm going to wait and get up around 6:50 tomorrow, though. Yay. =)

Jae's on, Jae's on. Yay~!!

My fingers are somewhat swollen... ick.

Ok Imma try n go ni nite. I'll be back prolly...*shrug*

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. . .rEALLY aND tRUELY. . . [04 Sep 2001|01:40am]
[ mood | awake ]

Nick kinda upsetted me. I don't know what's up with him. =/ He just started goin' off on how I 'fall in love too much with the wrong people'. Wtf? I've not once told anyone here I loved them in the relationship sense... Drew's been the only one that I've felt something that strong for 'n I like saying that. And the wrong people? What's THAT all about? Man. =( I lub Nick he's been so awesome lately... but I don't need that shit and espessially not from him. His brother said he knew what it was all about, but couldn't tell me... great. Whatever. Not gunna let this piss me off, but geezuhz. Nick I <3 u. ='(

Billy called me. He said Jonathan asked him to call cuz he's been bizzie with work and practice and a family situation. Uhm, ok. =/ It was nice of him to think about having someone contact me... I guess. Anyway, Billy talked to me for awhile before I started to bore him with my long lulls of silence. I'm sick of the phone and sick of it always being the wrong people calling or me not being able to call the right people. Billy I � U even if you boink my head on the ceiling lol.

Mike came over this morning. *big smile* I've missed him so damn much 'n I didn't realize it til today. Just chillin there, talkin bout shit n laffin was just like wow. Things won't ever be like they used to be... but we're doin so good.

Jimmy cracks me up. This afternoon I said something about me driving and he goes OMG YOU DRIVE NOW OMG I FORGOT. I was like Omg Common Sense Tingling eh? He's back in Arizona until Thanksgiving. Woopie!

Garrette left at 6 pM on his flight back to SC. Wah-oOo!

So. All is fairly well in the world of Tracey. I'm waiting for Jamie and / or Drew to get on. La La La.

JARAMIA WAS A BULL FROG! <~ You happie now Jaramamamamia? lol =P

Omfg My like distant distant cousin fucking got into UNC I about cried. *I'M* supposed to be the pride of this damn family. *twitches uncontrolubly* She's a bitch too, I wouldn't say that about family normally but she's screwed over my family so many times and only comes around when her selfish ass wants something.

My cousin, Michelle, who's in her 5th year at MU came over today. We chilled. UH. lol

What? Diet and Work out starts tommorrow? What? Oy. I called Casey a lil bit ago 'n let her know I wouldn't be able to lift in the morning... my right wrist is a lil bit fucked... like bruised. So, I guess I won't be lifting or fucking shooting for a lil bit...gawd. =*( I can still run my lil ass off though. Crunches too. Fun Times Eh?

My boob hurts. Badly. Oy. =(

Brady told me I was a wigga today when I was over at Nick's cuz I drove up with Snoop Dog playin lol. He was like Muh Gawd you usta be all NSYNC AHH now you're all yo imma wigga uh uh check one two. I was like, Uhm, yeeeah. Yeah I don't think he's high half the damn time...ha..ha..

I'm goin to see 'O' Friday. Josh fuckin Harnette MmMmMmMmMmMmMmMmMmMmMmMmMm. Man the boy wants me and you know it. lol

Montgomery Alabama, 1st or 2nd week of June 2002. I asked my Dad if I could take a few friends with me and us get a hotel room instead of staying at Ashley N's house where my parents will stay... he was like Uhm, We'll see. That means Yes. I don't know if I'll go though. It'll be like almost right after I get out of school AND after graduation AND like three weeks before *swallow* Europe. Jonathan and Derrik are talking about plannin a trip to Cancun one of those weeks, too and J said I *HAD* to go. Casey said the same thing, cuz she wants to room with me cuz I 'don't have a stick up my ass'. *shrug* LONG time off, not worried.

Mean Mugs and Shoulder Shrugs...eh heh heh.

I happen to miss Tyler (Papa Bear). He has not come to see me, the big fat liar. *pouts*

I made 2 icons. They sux as compared to everyone else, but bite me.

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. . .mAKiN bASKETBALL gOALS oUTTA MiLK cRATES. . . [03 Sep 2001|08:05pm]
[ mood | relaxed ]

Jus sum stuff....

pLAY LiST oN KaZaA
� Cryin - Areosmith
� Superbowl XXXV Halftime show - Areosmith, *NSYNC, Britney, Nelly, Mary J.Blige
� Fallin - Alicia Keys
� Nobody Knows It But Me - Babyface
� Hit 'Em Up Style - Blu Cantrell
� I'm A Slave For You Clip - Britney Spears
� FAKE I'm A Slave For You - Good song.
� Fill Me In - Craig David
� Key To My Heart - Craig David
� Walking Away - Craig David
� Nawtie Babie Did A No-No - Daphne Aguilera (Andy Dick)
� When You Need My Love - Daryl Worley
� Shout 2000 - Disturbed
� Voices - Disturbed
� Lately - Divine
� This Is Me Remix - Dream f/ P. Diddy & Kain
� Free Your Mind - En Vogue
� Where The Party At - Jagged Edge f/ Nelly
� Real Life - Jeff Carson
� I'm Real Remix (Dirty) - Jenifer Lopez f/ Ja Rule
� Crush - Jenifer Paige
� What If God Was One of Us - Joan Osborne
� Islands In The Stream - Kenny Rogers & Dolly Parton
� Cry - Mandy Moore
� That's A Plan - Mark McGuinn
� Country Grammar - Nelly
� Ride Wit Me - Nelly
� Batter Up - Nelly f/ St. Lunatics
� Falling - *N'sync
� That Girl (Will Never Be Mine) - *N'sync
� Most Beautiful Girl - Nu Flavor
� Midwest Swing - St. Lunatics
� I Got You Babe - Sonny and Cher
� I'm Super - Big Gay AL; South Park The Movie
� Dis Iz Da Life - St. Lunatics
� Boom D Boom - St. Lunatics
� Crush - Mandy Moore
� Can You Help Me - Usher
� You Remind Me - Usher

Dating Preference:

My current dating situation: Currently Single. Currently loving it. = )
My most ideal date: I <3 Amusment Parks..., but I'm not hard to please... I don't like movies though...or fancy dinners.
How planned I prefer a date to be: Little to no planning seems to be most fun.
What activities I enjoy on a date: Walking along the shore of the lake (awwe), AMUSMENT PARKS, swimming, lots n lots of talking, etc, etc.
Some of my views on dating etiquette: Uh, don't check out other girls. *shrug*
Some of my expectations on a first date.: Man I don't do the whole standard date thang.

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Entertainment:

My favorite kind of television shows: Friends, Even Stevens and Boy Meets World
My television viewing habits: I watch Disney everyday and Friends every nite at 10:30... but I usually do other things while I'm watchin them.
My all time favorite TV show: Friends.
My favorite kind of movies: Anything.
How often do I go to the movies?: At least once a weekend.
My all-time favorite movie: Rumplestiltskin, Love and Basketball, Legally Blonde, etc, etc.
My favorite kind of music: Pop, Rap, R&B, etc, etc.
I like music because: It's something everyone likes and you can always relate to someone somehow with it and pop up conversation about it... I could go into a whole speech about why Music rox but I'm tired n my wrists hurt so I'll spare ya.
My favorite singer/band: Third Eye Blind, Aerosmith, Nelly, Britney, Nsync, Disturbed, etc, etc.
My first album/CD was: My First CD was Bryan White (Between Now and Forever) and I think my first tape was like Patty Loveless lol
My favorite types of books: John Grishaum & Stephen King
My favorite author or book: John Grishaum / The Client

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Personality Traits:
My personality is: Sarcastic.
The virtues that mean the most to me: Friendliness, Honesty, Tolerance, Kindness, Compassion
The animal that best describes my personality: Uh, Monkey. lol
Important qualities I look for in a mate: Sense of Humor and they sure as hell better worship my ass. lol
A celebrity with a similar sense of humor: Chris Kirkpatrick yo. He does some of the dumbest stuff that is funnie as hell muh gawd.

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Hobbies & Interest:

Activities I like: Running, Basketball, Physical Activity, Driving, Talking, Shopping, Movies, Music, SLEEPING, etc, etc.
How I like to spend my free time indoors: Workin out, Writing, On this thing (Lots huh lol), Phone

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Sports & Outdoors:

Sports and activities I'm interested/active in? : Basketball, Softball, Volleyball, Track. I like to watch Football (High School), Wrestling (High School) and Baseball (Nick's games) and uh, College Basketball.
A great sporting or outdoor adventure would be...: Uh? lol

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Dreams & Goals:

My dream house: I just want it to be huge, white, blue roof, pool like Tommy Lee's, big ass gym, lots of trees, AND A DAMN DARK BLUE ROOM!
If I was a car, I would be...: Fuckin Mustang good gawd.
If I was given a million dollars, I would...: Go to whatever University and Law School my lil heart desired, buy a Mustang, Build us a new house with a damn Dark blue room, Buy all the CD's I've been wantin, Give some to my friends and family, Shopping Spree hello, Take my parents and a few friends to Australia, Build our school a Theater, etc, etc.
If I was granted 3 wishes...: 1.) ^ My Dream House, 2.) Be happie forever and ever and ever to come, 3.) More wishes. Greedie I kno.
What "power" would I like to have: Make everyone I care about happie without doing anything.
How I would spend my retirement: Florida. Duh.
How truthful have I been in this profile: Lots truthful.

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Work & Living Environment:

How much time does my job take up: Jobless babie.
My annual income: *cough*
My dining habits: Weird.
I'm online: too much.
How big is my family?: I'm an only child.
How close is my family?: Very close.
A bit about my life growing up...: Loved my childhood. Everything got ickie when I became a teenager lol.
I live in a: niiice house.
How I get around: My car.
Do I have any pets?: Dog, Dotty.
How do I feel about my career, family and life in general?: I have no career -- Life and family rawk though.

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Outlook on Life:

What factors are most important to me when looking for someone?: I don't LOOK for anyone. That's messed.
I bounce back from a bad day by...: Driving around, Sleeping, Talking to my friends.
My favorite season: Summer
My sign?: Cancer
What things in life are the most important to me?: My priorities.
5 years from now, I see myself...: 2006...I'll be a Sophmore @ some University.

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Physical Stuff:

Hair color: Naturally Brown.
Hair style: Ish long. I need it cut.
Eye color: Brown
Eyewear?: My vision is good enuff to pass the sight test to get my liscense so screw ya glasses.
I think people view me and my appearance as...: Most people seem to think I've got the world in the palm of my hand...wouldn't disagree totally either.
My favorite item of clothing: Sweatshirts.
My sexual health status: Clean as can be.

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. . .wHAT cHU tHiNK, i LiVE oNNA fARM?!. . . [03 Sep 2001|01:28am]
[ mood | sore ]

Someone who obvioulsy isn't from here asked for a list of everyone I talk about most often and how old they are... and since I'm ULTRA bored and watching Rumplestiltskin again... here goes...

Rowena.......Weena............15.......The Grove
Andrew..........Drew..............19.......Ohio
Jonathan......Jonfin,J............18.......The Grove
Grant............Mole................15.......The Grove
Nick.............Nickolass.........15.......The Grove
Cole.............Cole Slaw.........15.......The Grove
Robert.........Bob...................15.......The Grove
Alicia...........Apple................15......The Grove
Justin..........Jussin................17......The Grove
Teresa........Teres.................16.......The Grove
Derrik..........D.......................18.......The Grove
Mike............Mike.................19.......The Grove
Mike G........Pepper..............16.......The Grove
Sean...........Foun-Tane........19.......The Grove
Garrette......G.......................18.......South Carolina/The Grove
Jimmy.........Jim-may.............18.......Arizona/The Grove
James........Bolt....................17.......The Grove
Billy............Bill-lay................17.......The Grove
Amanda.....Manda..............16.......The Grove
Rusty.........Russ.................15.......The Grove
Ashley........Ashweed..........15.......The Grove
Sammi........Sam.................16........The Grove*
KT..............KT...................16........Blue Springs
Karissa........Rissa..............15........Blue Springs


* = She goes to school in BS cuz her Mommie teaches there and thier music program fuckin rox.
STATE/The Grove = College in STATE

There ya go old buds. Prolly left someone I talk about lots out, oh well we'll all servive. N no that ain't everyone I know... pssht. lol

I'm talkin to Nick. Yay Yay Yay!

Yanno the more I think about it...the more pissed off I'm getting. Grr.

Jonathan hasn't called me all day. =*(

PERAL IS BACK HOME! FUCKIN YES! I've missed her damn Brazilian ass! She went on vacation!

I <3 Nelly n all the songs he has out muh fuckin gawd. I'm sure it'd sounds just as phat with any rap song, but his sound so fuckin awesome outta my speakers specially since Justin H. fixed the bass innit I'm like shiiiit. Shakes the windows. K yea I'm easily amused n Jaramia thinks it's funnie but hi.

K I'm in a chat with Nick, Brandon and Sean (Not the one you're thinking... this one that's in my class... don't know him too well, I think I scare him.) and uh, guys are weird. Espessially Sophmore guys. I'm not used to being around them. *feels alienated*

My friends like go to my mom with their problems, so mom knows who's screwin who...lol...anyway, she's all I'm glad you got some friends who don't do that stuff to keep you away from it... as -if I'm SUCH a follower. Puh-leaze.

NiCK: im gunna go
SPOiLED eNUFF x: =( k ni nite. wub u.
SPOiLED eNUFF x: dream of meeee
NiCK: i always do

IS THAT NOT CUTE?! I wanted to run over to his damn house and give him a hug geeeeze!

My armpit keeps itchin. THIS IS YOUR FAULT.

After tomorrow, I don't have a break for 35 days... not a shedualed one anyway. If I continue hurting myself I'm not gunna be able to fuckin get there and walk around. Nick bent the hell outta my pinkie finger cuz he didn't realize it really was hurting cuz I am quite a big babie, but it's all purple... I don't use it to type so yea.

Everything works okay as long as I wrap it and continue icing it and taking care of it, pain killers help to...well, advil. But anyway, I start two a day conditioning with Casey Tuesday. Means I get up at 4:30, go into the school and weight lift from 4:45 until 6, come home and get dressed. Go to school then after school run my fuckin ass off for an hour. I'm actually excited. Jonathan said he'd lift with me before school and run with me the days he didn't have practice.

Old Convo between Nick and I... amused me...
ME: NICK
Nick: wut
ME: I AM DEEPLIE DEEPLIE HURT
ME: Peral: traceys dead
Nick: is she?
Nick: good

Nick: lol
Nick: srry
ME: whatever dont talk to me.
ME: this will take years to get over
Nick: ok
Nick: bye bye
ME: bye
Nick: no no no
Nick: TRACEY!
Nick: srry
Nick: srry
Nick: srry
Nick: srry
Nick: srr
Nick: srry
Nick: srry
Nick: srry
Nick: srry
Nick: srr
Nick: s
Nick: r
Nick: r
Nick: y
Nick: *bows down on knees and begs for forgiveness*
Nick: forgives forgiveness
Nick: even if
Nick: you dont luv me nmore!
Nick: princess tracey i bow down to you
Nick: foregive me
Nick: ??
ME: *sigh* I suppose
Nick: yay!
ME: on second thought
ME: NO.
Nick: y not?!
Nick: im not lickin the fuckin floor 4 u:-)
ME: *gasps* YOU AND PERAL ARE GUNNA FUKK BAD KID
Nick: no
Nick: we
Nick: not
ME: lolz
ME: >=)
Nick: no!
Nick: plz dont
ME: lol
Nick: r u horny alot?
Nick: cuz peral is
Nick: she tellded me
ME: lmao
ME: i cannot believe yo ujust asked me that
Nick: lol
ME: are YOU hornie alot? cuz peral is. she tellededed me.
Nick: lol im not
ME: sure your not.
Nick: she has a glowie dildo
Nick: lol
ME: lol you believe that huh?
Nick: no
ME: lol liar.
Nick: lol
Nick: have 1 too huh
Nick: ?
ME: lol oh yes
Nick: i g2g
Nick: bye bye
ME: lol bye

Sup.

Man it really fukkin hurts to be this sexie. *whines*

My bed looks really fuckin inviting yo.

*eyes bed* It'd look inviting with like Nevermind lol.

Someone changed the ringer on my phone to the Mexican Hat Dance so when it rang last nite I was like wtf you got a fukkin gay ring... thinkin it was Grant's and he was like uh I think that's your's I got mine on silent. I was like oh fucketh me. N this is about the time I got to it too late. WOOPA DAISIE!

I'm all drivin out to Amanda's (She lives bout 25 minutes from my ass) with her in the car the other nite we're listenin to Nelly rite n I hit this huge fuckin bump n it skips the CD n I'm still singin n she wa slike well then. It amused me.

Yanno what? Jonathan still hasn't called me. This kinda worries me, it's NOT like him to not even call n leave a message on my VM. =/ Hope he's ok. Him n James were goin up to Topeka to look at some college up there n if James drove dear gawd. lol Hm I'll try n call him latah prolly. *sigh*

My mom has never pushed me to get with a guy.... until now. She's convinced he's perfect. It's sickening almost. I like it lots when she don't like the guy I'm dating...hence why I enjoyed Sean so much. *shrug*

Fukkin A my ass is gunna go crash for a bit I'll catch ya'll latah. MWAHS!

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. . .bUT nOW wE'RE uP iN tHE BiG lEAGUES. . . [02 Sep 2001|09:10pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

I wroted that last one Friday Nite k thanks.

Last nite Recap - Grant came over 'n sat as far away from me as possible to watch movies (I'm all but sure Garrette warned him not to get attatched cuz I only break <3's. I don't want Grant anyway...), Drew read my away message... called my cell... I couldn't get to it in time... so I'm suddenly a whore, wait no... a lieing whore.

He gets on-line, argues with me, leaves. Fun for all.

For once after arguing with Drew I'm not fucking crying, but I'm pissed. I was talking to Amanda 'n I told her about everything... she told me the best thing she could see to do was remember my priorities and not let this bug me, possibly delete AOL or at least stay the fuck off it. I'm thinking that's a good resolution now. As I've mentioned before, School n Basketball are my priorities now... hence why I'm not dating. I let Jonathan get to close... but he knows we ain't goin nowhere anytime soon as anything more then friends. Yet he's not dating anyone either. Probably cuz aside from me Casey is the only other girl he really can stand at our school...'n he doesn't wanna be with her anymore. *shrug* Doesn't matter. Anyway, I cannot afford to be upset and crying over things... girls are good about this no fighting thing... but guys... geezuz.

K well let's recap again, Drew is still the one that means the most but yet the one that upsets me mostest. Jonathan is growing on me, but I still don't want him 'cept for friends cuz I am so wrapped up in Drew. Grant is my friend and omg only my friend and I don't fuck him. The End.

K. College goers came back this weekend. Jimmy was the first to come see my ass. Picked me up 'n twirled me around 'n I was like Jimmy Jimmy Jimmy I jus ate stop. lol Anyway, he had pictures to show me of his new girl... She's fuckin cute as hell. He's done good. Garrette stopped by later, with Brook. LOVED to see that. So, we're kewl there. John, Ben and Jacob stopped by to say Hey... none of 'em have shaved I'm like eww. lol Sean stopped by earlier today, brought his girl by... she's alrite looking, but she's really really nice. I had to tell him the storie about what happened in Algebra on Wednesday which I forgot to put up in here so here goes...

K we all know Devon looks a lot like me... well, Mr. B didn't really know me well last year... or Devon... so anyway, she sits beside me and he comes up to her 'n is like...
Mr. B: So Darlin, how is Casa?
D: Huh?
Mr. B: You know...Casanova?
D: Uhm, No...
Mr. B: Crud, can't remember the ol' guys name... graduated... you dated him... *points at Ashley* You, your boy hung out with him a lot... both good ol' basketball players.
Ash: Sean?
Mr. B: YES! Mr Foun-tane!
D: Oh, that would be Trace you'd need to be asking...
Me: Oh my god... *slumps down in chair*
Mr. B: Op! BUN? You and Foun-tane?!
Me: I..uh, yea.
Mr. B: Well how is ol' Casanova?
Me: Dunno.
Mr. B: Oh Darlin, I know he didn't get rid of you... you didn't ditch him for ol' Red did ya?
Me: Nah.
Rusty: (Amanda's Boyfriend) NOPE! She dumped him for *flutters eyelashes n says in the gayest voice* Drew.
Me: *lays head down on desk*
Mr. B: Oh oh Bun, who's this?
Me: Drew.
Mr. B: This ain't that guy little Williams (Amanda) drug around a picture of on the last day is it?
Teresa: Yup, ol bud Drew.
Mr. B: So you had ol' Casa bite the curb for this Drew guy huh?
Me: I uh, yea...
Mr. B: Sweetie ya say uh a lot, not very sure of what ya say are ya?
Philip: She's just shy.
Mr. B: OH yes I forget your mute. So, when did Drew get out the picture and in came ol Red?
Me: Jonathan ain't in the picture...
Mr. B: Oh, so you're still stuck on ol Drew?
Me: *I'm sure I was 12903480219832 shades of red* Yea but he's moved on.
Mr. B: *throws head back and slams hand on desk* NOT STUCK ON LIL T? HOW IS THIS? *He litterally screamed this*
Randy: Mystery ain't it?
Mr. B: Someone needs to knock some sense into ol' buddy Drew. Poor Lil T.
*Bell Rings, I litterally run out*
Mr. B: Lil T you tell ol' bud Drew he needs to see what's up!

I just happened to know how the diolouge went cuz Michelle had to tape the class for fucking OGTV... she wants to use that for the Drama portion, I told her no. lol

I've aquired a name other than my normal in almost every class...
1st Hour - Crash. Basically cuz I'm always half asleep in there since it IS first hour, and I've run into my desk everyday...so she calls me Crash. *shrug*
2nd Hour - Dude the Teddie Bear sux.
3rd Hour - Josefina. *shrug* Boring.
4th Hour - Lil Bit, Derrik n James always come in to give him the plays for practice that day and they always go 'Lil Biiiiiiiiiiit' and Coach P found it amusing. Hehe. Wow, I just hehed. I don't do that. Blah.
5th Hour - She has a problem, don't ask me why or how, saying Tracey so she just calls me T.
6th Hour - Lil T (Tracy Philpott is in there... she's Big T cuz she's a Senior, duh), Bun (Weniers go on Buns... we remember this), Hasse's Sidekick (Jonathan), and Bit. He picks n chooses.
7th Hour - Sprinkles. Casey is Cookie. HodgePodge is odd.

I don't mean to sound all anti christ here -- but if I here one more girl tell me that God told them that it wasn't right to have a boyfriend right now, I'm gunna scream. Alea broke up with Geoff last year because of that, Angela with Robert for that. This year Melanie dumped Ryan for that and Courtney dumped Geoff for it. I'm begining to think God just don't like Geoff. Ha-ha. No, but seriously... take the blame for yourselves geeze. It's not obvious when they get with a different guy a week later. *shrug* I think it's poopie.

*sigh* I'm gunna go drive around. =*(

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. . .sHOULD hAVE bEEN mORE WiSE. . . [02 Sep 2001|04:23pm]
[ mood | loved ]

Jonathan said he'd call me once the game got over to see what I wanted to do or figure something out, well the game got over early I guess... earlier then normal anyway...and I didn't think it would be him otherwise I would have made an attempt to answer nicer but I was like WHAT?! and he was like Uhm, I'm sorrie? And I was like Oh...OH! Hi. Anyway, he was like well I'm gunna go to David's for awhile... you wanna come? And I was like Nah, you can go though. And he was like aite. And I huffed, cuz I didn't care if he went but hello did he not care why I didn't wanna? And I explained that I had been fighting with my dad... and he was like Oh, I'm sorry. I know he's excited cuz they won 'n shit, but good gawd. I'm not mad at him... I guess I'm just in a bitchy mood. *sigh* Nick's on. I <3 him so much, he's the greatest friend gosh. He's ALWAYS making me laugh and so like me, it's great. I wish Grant would call me. I think he went to the game though. We don't get to talk near as much as I'd like to, but enuff. Blah Blah Blah. I took Ryan to Subway today, he's so nice. I wish the guys would be nicer to him. He's fuckin funnie too. *shrug* Z has his liscense, he drove Ben down to Subway too... I was like OMFG I don't like being on the same road as you 'n he was like c'mon you know you love being ON things with me. I was like Ok yeah. Have I ever expressed how hott Ben is? I am now. Damn. Prettie amusing too. OMG in World History Philip kept lightly tracing his finger up my arm n blowing on the back of my neck and I was like OMFG STOP cuz it like omg, damn. He found it funnie. Then he was eating a candie bar and moaned and I was like what was that *insert moan here* for? and he was like OMFG YOU DIDN'T JUST DO THAT. And Ryan and Ben were like Holy Hell. I was like Uh Ok turning around now. lol I didn't even realize. Oh well.I haven't really had much homework yet in any classes... I think most of my teachers think I'm a flaming retard who can't do anything, but talk n get picked on by guys. OH! We had a Hi-Step meeting this morning, Jonathan, Casey, Derrik and myself are all in a group -- rawk on? Oh yes. Grant was liek isn't it weird being like tyte with Case after everything 'n I was like nah. It's not really. We're kewl. Her n Jonathan didn't have anything anyway, so she said. *shrug* I'm listening to "I'M A SLAVE 4 U"... er supposed to be anyway, lol. It kinda don't sound like Brit, so I dunno... I like the song though... *shrug* Mom went to get me McDonald's. Michelle still isn't here. I'm expecting Jonathan to stop by 'round 10... just cuz I think he's gunna feel bad inna few. If not it's kewl. We AREN'T dating so it's not like he needs to report back to me or anything.

K, it's been like 20 minutes later and I'm checking my Voice Mail and he sent me one saying "I just wanted to tell you, you mean the world to me and I'm sorrie for being a dick earlier... I'll be by later. Love you." Cute right? Yeah. *rolls eyes* Man I'm a bitch. Anyway, Michelle is here, I'm gone. Latah.

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. . .i nEVER rEALiZED hOW mUCH yOU fEEL fOR sOMEBODiE aFTER yOU lET tHEM gO. . . [02 Sep 2001|04:20pm]
[ mood | amused ]

This, my friends, was written on Friday but LJ is a bish head and two halves so it wouldn't let me post...anyway. = )

First off -- I Have a Britney Spears' Collecters cup from QT that I am very proud of now. lol

Aite Bish heads... been awhile huh? Yup. I don't really have a clue where to pick up...so Imma just run wit it...

I helped paint Alicia's new room in her new house last nite (Thursday nite) with Justin n Her.... Justin painted my face purple as well as every other place basically, he even got it in my mouth. I painted him too though. Fun times! Justin, INDIAN NOISES. lol

Wednesday me and Alicia went to the Softball game rite... well, we missed Varsity so we got there when JV was playing... Casey is on Varsity... Casey was sitting beside Jonathan all talking with him and touching him like old times... this angered me somewhat...Alicia and I snuck in behind him and sat there til my cell phone rang and he turned around knowing my ring and had a nice shocked look on his face. I walked off to take the call and when I was done he was like Who Was that? And I was like I'm sorrie I don't think I have to tell you shit ever again. And he was like Trace she's my friend c'mon. And I was like I know YOU know that but does SHE? I luff Casey she's one of my favoritestestest friends cuz she's fuckin hysterical -- but the girl wants him 'n it's obvious. So anyway I just let it go... but I was still kinda pissed. After the game Alicia n Me went to Justin's house, but he was at work so we went out to her new house til it started to rain then went back home and yeah.

So today... I wrote this at school so woo you're excited...

Oy. I so seepie. Currently I'm in Biology, fun stuff. I want English. Should be fun, actually. Anyway, we're doing metric conversions. Uh, I'm en Espanol now. We're going over speaking rules, fun for all. Nick keeps poking my bruises, asshead. K. Hi. I'm in Algebra now. English was kewl stuff.

K that's all. Lol. Nah, but backtracking... in Spanish Billy thought he should probably pick me up and flip me upside down. During this lovely twirl, I hit my head on the cieling. I now have a huge cut across my forhead along with a niiice bruise the size of Texas. Not to mention the ankel I sprained running with Matt the other day smacked into Senora Oste's desk. Fun times. At lunch, I was sitting there working on my English and I didn't understand a question or two so James helped me out. Once I got done I was soo releived so I gave him a hug and a kiss on the cheek cuz I'm cute like that. Well, Jonathan walked in... and I didn't think it would phase him or bug him... so I went about my business. He sat down, but didnt ask anyone to move so he could sit by me... which isn't normal. He didn't say anything to me, so I kept paying attention to the guys like I had. Billy kept making me let him put a wet paper towel on my head, James and I kept laughing about how I ran into the door for the 3rd time with him and Derrik and I kept winkin n makin "go horsie" noises. I still didnt say anything cuz I was kinda mad about last nite still... well I was like Imma go get a pop and Nick pops up and is like I'll come with you, Jonathan huffed and I just kinda looked at him. So, as I was walking back into the lunch room Jonathan stopped me and was like We've gotta talk.So, we walked down the seal hall n he didn't say anything, so we got to the end where the doors are and I was like 'Are you gunan yell? Do we need to go outside?' cuz I basically figured he was gunna. He rolled his eyes ever so dramatically and steered me towards my locker n started going on and on and on about how I had no rite to complain about him and Casey and I was like aite ok fine, don't make a scene. And he was like 'I'M NOT! I'm not pissed! I just would rather you not act like you screw every guy you see!', this was at the bell and Grant heard him and saw the way I reacted and I was like "Yanno you can just fuck off J" n stormed off. Natural reaction for him was to run after me, so he did. He finally caught up with me and saw how upset I was n was like Fuck. I was prettie damn shocked cuz I've NEVER cried over any guy except Drew. Yeah, I got pissed, but I never cried. It was weird, really weird. I wasn't even just crying, it like hurt. So anyway, he was all trying to calm me down so we went outside n sat in the grass beside the building and he was like why are you so upset? and I was like I dunno n he goes Trace, we've faught before n we'll probably do it again cuz we care about each other so much n need each other n everytime we fight it's over something we think we're gunna lose one another over. And I realized he was rite. It doesn't matter if we're together in a boyfriend/girlfriend sense, we don't NEED that... but we both know parts of each of us want it. He's the best thing that's here rite now. I need him. Need him to hold me, to be the sensible one in everything, to be there whether it's a hair crisis or something serious. You can look at him and see how much he cares, it's amazing. He hangs on my every word and really makes me feel like something extrodinary. I love catching him looking at me when he thinks I don't know and the faint blush that creeps on his face, the way he sneeks up behind me expecting me not to be able to know it's him when he wraps his hands over my eyes, the way he runs his hands through my hair when I'm upset, the soft kisses on my forehead, how his hand fits so perfectly in the curve of my back, how he smells, how he calls just to tell me hey or see how I'm doing or just cuz he was thinking about me. Just everything he does without a single word, but so amazing and it's so special. He's got the biggest heart and is sooo unselfish. And after almost two years of being like this... close...I'm finally realizing all the fighting and break-ups were such a waste of time and we're stuck together now, no turning back. But yet I still don't want a relationship... what the fuck is wrong with me.

Ashley n Drew are back together. *throws confetti* Puzzling.

I don't even hardlie see anyone I chilled with this summer. It kinda sux... but I like this better. Sammi, KT, Karisa n Ash never see me hardlie. I eat lunch with Amanda, Amy, Becca, Ricci n Larson tho. Woo - Hoo!

Jonathan and the rest of the guys play at Knob Noster tonite. I don't get to go cuz my parent's don't want me driving that far and I forgot to talk to Coach Glasgow about riding the bus. Michelle is speanding the nite though... we'll probably go to Nick's or he'll come here or something.

I've been fuckin myself up left n rite. I'm currently wrapping three parts of my bodie, popping advil as much as I'm allowed to releive the pain and icing my shoulder, knee, elbow and ankel nitely. Isn't this sad?! Basketball, running and just walking in general cause nothing but accidents.

Just cuz I'm getting tired of sharing stuff with you retards (haha...) I'm goin ni nite.

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. . .tOLD mY hEART i DiDNT wANT yOU bUT i LiED. . . [02 Sep 2001|04:10pm]
[ mood | distressed ]

I'll be getting to actually entries later today... but I'm kinda stressed right now so I'm going to do this and sip on my Vanilla Coke...

-- '` * HEY THERE HI THERE HO THERE! WHAT'S YOUR FULL NAME?
Tracey Nichole Bitemybigtoe.
-- '` * AND HOW ARE YOU DOING TODAY?
Fuckin awesome... 'cept stressed 'n tired, but it's kewl.
-- '` * WOW! THAT'S AWESOME! WHAT DID YOU DO TODAY?
Yup! Grant came over and we went to Breakfast w/ Michelle @ Noon and now Shell and I are just chillin'.
-- '` * ONCE AGAIN, THAT'S QUITE AWESOME! WHAT ABOUT TOMORROW?
Cleaning so my Dad will build me a new room.
-- '` * CO0L. HOW OLD ARE YOU?
16 and two months.
-- '` * AND WHERE DO YOU RESIDE?
The Grove babie.
-- '` * DO YA LIKE IT THERE?
Nah, I like 8.1 % of the people though.
-- '` * WHAT KIND OF HOUSE DO YOU LIVE IN?
It's nice... not like a mansion, but I like it.
-- '` * SOUNDS CO0L. ARE THERE ANY TREES NEAR YOUR HOUSE?
Yup.
-- '` * IS THERE ANY GRASS NEAR YOUR HOUSE?
Uhm, I live in Missouri not the desert.
-- '` * DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS?
My dog, Dotty. She's cute... plump, but cute.
-- '` * DO YOU GET ALONG WITH YOUR FAMILY?
Most of the time.
-- '` * WHO ARE YOUR CLOSER FRIENDS?
Rowena, Drew, Peral, Jonathan, Michelle, Grant, Nick, Amanda, Casey, etc, etc.
-- '` * WHAT SCHOOL DO YOU GO TO?
OGHS.
-- '` * DO YOU LIKE IT?
Not really...
-- '` * WHEN DO/DID YOU START SCHOOL?
Augest 23rd.
-- '` * AWESOME! DO YOU DO ANY EXTRACURRICULAR ACTIVITIES?
I'm a member of Hi-Step, AFS 'n Student Council...and I play Basketball and contemplating Track. Oh, n I weight lift. *shrug*
-- '` * WHAT'S YOUR BEST & WORST CLASSES?
Best - English and Typing. Worst - Spanish.
-- '` * ARE YOU A GOOD STUDENT?
Yea.
-- '` * WHAT ARE YOUR GRADES LIKE?
I obtain an A average ok.
-- '` * HAVE YOU EVER GOTTEN AN 'F' ON YOUR REPORT CARD?
Nope.
-- '` * HOW MANY CLASSES DO YOU HAVE?
Seven.
-- '` * WHAT ARE YOUR SCHOOL HOURS?
7:40 to 2:31
-- '` * OK, ENOUGH ABOUT SCHOOL!
Aite.
-- '` * WHO ARE YOUR FAVORITE BANDS?
Third Eye Blind, Limp, Staind, Aerosmith, etc, etc.
-- '` * WHO ARE YOUR FAVORITE GROUPS?
Dream, Nsync, BBMak, etc, etc.
-- '` * WHO ARE YOUR FAVORITE SINGERS?
Britney, Craig David, Willa Ford, Joey McIntyre, etc, etc.
-- '` * WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE SONGS?
Today it's "I'm Super" from the South Park movie...lol.
-- '` * DO YOU PLAY ANY INSTRUMENTS?
Piano and Sax.
-- '` * WHAT WAS THE LAST CONCERT YOU WENT TO?
Nsync on July 10th.
-- '` * WAS IT FUN?
Amusing.
-- '` * HOW MANY CONCERT HAVE YOU BEEN TO?
Quite a few. . .
-- '` * DO YA LIKE CONCERTS?
Yulp.
-- '` * WHAT WERE THE BEST SEATS YOU EVER HAD?
2nd Row at some Country Concert. lol Woo.
-- '` * WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TYPE OF MUSIC?
I suppose Pop.
-- '` * ARE YOU LISTENING TO ANY MUSIC NOW?
Yeah.
-- '` * YOU ARE?! WELL, SHARE WITH US!
Westlife's first album.
-- '` * AND WHAT PART OF THE SONG IS IT ON NOW?
Uhm, the begining of 'Can't Lose What Ya Never Had'
-- '` * WHAT ARTIST DO YOU LISTEN TO MOST?
Eminem, Nsync, Britney.
-- '` * OK, ENOUGH ABOUT THAT!
Aite.
-- '` * SO, DO YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND?
*coughs* Nope. Doin' good...
-- '` * HOW LONG HAVE YOU TWO BEEN DATING?
Blah.
-- '` * DO YA HAVE A CRUSH?
I don't think I crush anymore. I'm broken.
-- '` * HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN AFTER THEM?
*coughs*
-- '` * I DON'T SEE WHY THEY'RE NOT WITH YOU. YOU'RE SO COOL!
Omg I know right.
-- '` * DO YOU HAVE ANY NAPSTER-TYPE PROGRAMS?
KaZaA
-- '` * WHAT ARE YOU DOWNLOADING RIGHT NOW?
Superbowl Halftime Show.
-- '` * HOW MANY MP3S DO YOU HAVE?
Lots.
-- '` * WOW! THAT'S A LOT!!
Uhm, yup!
-- '` * CAN YOU DO A HANDSTAND?
In the pool.
-- '` * CAN YOU DO A FLIP?
Yulp.
-- '` * ARE YOU FLEXIBLE AT ALL?
Fuck yes.
-- '` * CAN YOU DANCE?
Yeah.
-- '` * HAVE YOU EVER TAKEN DANCING LESSONS?
Naw.
-- '` * Y0U HAVE?! WELL, WHAT DID YOU TAKE AND FOR HOW LONG??
Bleh.
-- '` * THAT'S SO COOL. I LOVE YOU.
I love me too.
-- '` * HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON STAGE?
Yup.
-- '` * WHAT FOR?
Band, Chior, Awards, Talent Competitions, Plays.
-- '` * WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU'RE OLDER?
Lawyer.
-- '` * WHAT COLLEGE DO YOU WANT TO GO TO?
Georgetown or UNC for Law School... MU or KU for the first four/four and a half years.
-- '` * DO YOU WANT TO GET MARRIED?
Yea.
-- '` * DO YOU WANT TO HAVE KIDS?
Yesh ma'am.
-- '` * HOW MANY? I WANT NAMES TOO, DAMMIT!
Three. First Boy - Logan Scott. Second Girl - Alexandria Nichole. Third Girl - Larissa Ann.
-- '` * AW THAT'S SWEET. WHAT RELIGION ARE YOU?
Christian... My Denomination ish Southern Baptist...
-- '` * DO YOU BELIEVE IN LABELS?
Huh?
-- '` * WHAT'S YOUR FONDEST MEMORY?
High School so far.
-- '` * WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE VACATION SPOT?
Florida, North Carolina and Rowena's house.
-- '` * WHO'S YOUR FAVORITE RELATIVE?
Micheal - Babie Cousin. Derrik - Oldest Cousin. Grandma and Grandpa. Not to mention my parents, but yeah.
-- '` * HOW DO YOU SPEND YOUR HOLIDAYS?
With family and friends.
-- '` * HOW MUCH MAIL IS IN YOUR MAILBOX?
11 things that probably don't matter.
-- '` * WHAT ARE ALL OF YOUR AOL/AIM NAMES?
SPOiLED eNUFF x is really the only one you need.
-- '` * HOW MANY BUDDIES ARE ON?
10 out of 114, but I'm not talking to any of them cuz I'm crankie.
-- '` * MAKE UP A NAME FOR YOURSELF:
Uhm, hi.
-- '` * WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
Truman Medical East.
-- '` * AND WHEN WAS THIS?
July 15th of 1985 at 9:22 aM
-- '` * WHAT ARE YOUR PARENTS NAMES?
Carol and Darrell
-- '` * WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEXUAL POSITION?
Hi! Virgin! K thanks!
-- '` * WHATS YOUR FAVORITE BREAKFAST CEREAL?
Bunnie Cereal.
-- '` * WHATS THE FIRST THING YOU DO UPON WAKING?
Moan, Stretch, Pottie.
-- '` * COFFEE OR ORANGE JUICE?
Chocolate Milk.
-- '` * STOP TO SMELL THE ROSES OR RUSH TO WORK/SCHOOL?
When you drive 70 to 80 mph no matter where you are... you have no need to rush.
-- '` * WHAT IS YOUR MORNING BATHROOM ROUTINE?
Pottie, Shower if nessacary, Wash Face, Brush Teeth, Hair, Make-up, Clothes.
-- '` * TOAST OR POPTART?
Toast.
-- '` * DO YOU HAVE NORMAL SLEEPING HABITS?
I'm really, honestly, fucked up in my sleeping and it's finally catching up.
-- '` * HOW MANY HOURS OF SLEEP DO YOU AVERAGE?
Four to Five. I get crankie if I have more then Four but less than Twelve. It's nuts.
-- '` * GET ON THE INTERNET BEFORE SCHOOL/WORK?
I get up too early some mornings and I always leave it on to DL so, yeah.
-- '` * CHANGE YOUR UNDERWEAR REGULARLY?
Deffinetly.
-- '` * SING IN THE SHOWER?
Yulp.
-- '` * FLEX IN THE MIRROR?
I look at myself...lol.
-- '` * BUTTER OR MARGARINE?
Butter.
-- '` * WHATS YOUR FAVORITE FAST FOOD PLACE?
McDonald's.
-- '` * TAKE OUT, DRIVE THRU, OR EAT IN?
Eat In.
-- '` * BRING YOUR LUNCH OR EAT FROM VENDING MACHINE?
I only drink Bunnie Milk or a Cherry Coke at Lunch...
-- '` * EAT IN GROUP OR ALONE?
Group.
-- '` * WOULD YOU LIKE FRIES WITH THAT?
Nope.
-- '` * GOSSIP?
Eh?
-- '` * DO YOU BRUSH YOUR TEETH AFTER EVERY MEAL?
I don't have time.
-- '` * CHEW TRIDENT?
Big red.
-- '` * ARE YOU EATING ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
Cookie.
-- '` * EVER HAD A, HOW YOU SAY, NOONER?
A wha?
-- '` * FAVORITE TV DINNER:
Chicken Pasta.
-- '` * FAVORITE CANDY BAR:
Peanut Butter shtuff.
-- '` * FAVORITE CHEWING GUM:
Big Red.
-- '` * DOES LOUD CHEWING BOTHER YOU?
YES.
-- '` * DO YOU TALK WITH YOUR MOUTH FULL?
Omg No.
-- '` * WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SLEEPING POSITION?
Fetal all curled up.
-- '` * DO YOU DREAM IN COLOR OR BLACK & WHITE?
Color.
-- '` * DO YOU SLEEP ALONE?
With all the pillows I have there isn't room for anyone else...
-- '` * HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A BAR?
Yeah.
-- '` * HOW ABOUT A GAY BAR?
Dick's?! Lol No.
-- '` * DO YOU DRINK?
Nopes.
-- '` * DO YOU DRINK AND DRIVE?
Uhm, Yes cuz I have FLAMING RETARD written across my forehead.
-- '` * HOW ABOUT DRUGS, DO YOU DO THOSE?
Nah.
-- '` * DO YOU CARRY CONDOMS?
Uh, Yea I have one in my wallet and purse. They're flavored, it's amusing. You wouldn't get it...
-- '` * NAME SOMETHING STUPID YOU'VE DONE WHILE DRUNK:
La La La.
-- '` * TELL ME A RECENT DREAM:
Pepper stole Rowena's pants and we both had bushie eyebrows.
-- '` * WHAT ARE YOU DOING NEXT SATURDAY NIGHT?
Movies.
-- '` * WHAT DO YOU SLEEP IN?
Shorts and a big shirt.
-- '` * KISS AND TELL?
Nopes.

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. . .sOMETIMES i gET a rUSH. . . [29 Aug 2001|04:47pm]
Today was such a fucking blast. C'mon, you all know first hand how much I HATED school and wasn't looking forward to it... but today was SO much fun. SHALL WE REVIEW?!

This morning we went (Alicia and I) to McDonald's for breakfast. It was fun. On the way there we passed Justin (her boyfriend) and I proceded to scream and honk crazily at him. Good times.

Fuck I gotta go to Softball game. I'll fill ya in when I get back.

Billy - I you. lol
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. . .iTS bEEN a lONG TiME, i sHOULDNT oF lEFT yOU. . . [29 Aug 2001|06:48am]
[ mood | tired ]

TODAY I. . .

� Parked 'crooked' in my parking spot which 5 people took note of and proceded to tell me.

� Wrote two 'letters' to two very important people that I probably will never let see them.

� Got picked on by Mr. B, again.

� Made HodgePodge turn bright red in anger, again.

� Ripped the wire out of my bra and asked the shy quiet girl that sits beside me in Biology if she needed it for anything, she looked mighty scared.

� Exclaimed 'CRAP NO' a total of 21 times while in the prescense of THE Derrik B. ; )+ PLUS TUNG lmao

� Told my English teacher, 'WOOPA DAISIES!' when I 'couldn't find' my assignment. (Teresa's lil cousin he's like two, instead of saying Woopsie Daisies he says Woopa Daisies 'n it amused the hell outta me.)

� Found amusment with Grant everytime we'd kick each other. So we're still kids at heart, sue us.

� Read aloud en....*gaspies* espanol.

� Fuckin got a 93% on my Spanish HO HEADS! *dances* I beat Nick I beat Nick.

� Got told *three* times how sexie I look in red. Mwhaha.

� Screamed at Casey to 'Shut her mouth and her legs!' in the middle of the Senior Hall. She about died laughing. Funnie as hell.

� Ran into the SAME door as the first time I did it with James B, AGAIN with James B.

� REmet Trisha S... since she moved back n all. *growl*

� Undressed Ike with my eyes... er at least he said he swore that's what I was doing. lol

� Played five games of three on three after school in the gym. *flips hair* As if you had to ask... Casey, Myself and Nick kicked ass. (Jonathan, Derrik n Coach P if you were wondering. We rox.)

� Went to Nick's house for like an hour and a half and chilled.
+ got barked at for like 10 minutes by his stupid dogs.
+ stood in the doorway of his house for like 10 minutes before he came to realize, oh, i should let them (Shell n I) in.
+ got a basketball he gave mel, signed n all. lol
+ took myself on a tour of his house
+ got tackled. always fun. im fragile you pissheads.
+ made myself at home in his living room while he fixed a little kids bike. (Ok yes I thought this was fucking cute and two halves that he gave the lil tyke the time of day)

� Went to Brandon's house for a few. (Yea We were jus pimpin it ok. lol)
+ got the grand tour of the n-----s home.
+ found that Justin (his older brother whom I find to be ultra sexie) has rainbow carpet.
+ met his dad.
+ got kisses from his dog.
+ bonded with his little sister.

� Came home and watched TV.

� Worked on English Project.

� Went to Sonic with Michelle. We both got Super Sized Meals and Ice Cream. We looked like pigs. You'd eat like that too if you hadn't done any eating in 27 some odd hours. (NO We're not anerexic we just been too bizzie to eat... seriously. N yea I realize I have time to be on here but we don't have anything good at my house. *sniffle*)

� Came home and presented my English Project to my mom, I went over the time limit by 6 minutes. I had to eleminate some things.

� Here I am.

= ) As much as I despise getting up in the morning... I <3 it once I get there. Not so much the academic role of it (obviously) but this year has rawked so far... but then again we're only like five days into it.

I really, really want to go see American Pie 2 this weekend. Grrrrr. It's been like four months since we've done shit with Grant n Cole.

I've found my weakness. Chocolate Pies. Yanno the lil ones in the pakages? Nick had some at his house n he made me take a bite of his cuz I was like nuuuh I no like cuz i dun usually like chocoalte -- but omg. Orgasmic I'm tellin you.

In Biology me and Jarek were partners cuz he said he had to be cuz he missed me. I'm like oh man, hott guy wants to be lab partner with me.. what DO i do? haha. So anyway, Ol Teddie Bear Teach twice asks us a question that's answer is 'microorganism', first time i answered and said orgasm in pure acident. i SERIOUSLY didnt mean to. So, then Jarek being the sly cat he is does the same thing. After class TBT told us he felt it would better our learning if we were no longer partners. I found this amusing. he just thinks we're gunna jump one another. pssht. jareks got a lil too much money for my liking... haha ok that sounds weird espessially coming from me. but the boy lacks personality but he makes up for it in money. yanno kinda how jimmy lacks sense of humor but makes up for it in ears? yea you got me.

Casey thought HE (Notice how I'm not talking about HER...just to clarrify) thought HE should probably chase me down the road in his car while I was driving and honking on his horn he obviously thought would be good too. Funnie stuff.

To let you know how emotionally sensative I am... I was watching the thing on MTV with Ananda about Aaliyah and then the tape from Usher 'guest hosting' Regis and Kelly... and I bawled. Litterally. Not jus cute lil streams of tears...sobs n shit. N i mean, I liked her music and I thought she was the bestestest dancer muh gawd.... but I wasn't like omg aaliyah she kewlies woo rah rah yanno? Think how it'd be if some other celeb I really liked *cough britney jc diana cough* died? i'm not saying her death isn't devistating enuff...im just sayin yanno. and omg what happens whens omeone close to me dies? yeah brett was hard... and i still get kinda bugged by it sum... but now... geezuz... i just, blah i don't like death at all. i guess you're not supposed to though.

I leave July 1st 2002 and will be gone until July 17th of 2002. Does this upset any of you? It duz me =*(

OK TIME FOR SCHOOL K BYE BYES!

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. . .cRUEL, cRUEL sUMMER. . . [28 Aug 2001|01:53am]
[ mood | blank ]

K Hi. I just wanted to clerify that a lot of shit I say in here I don't mean... and these are my thoughts at the praticular time weather I be sleep deprived... caffine highed... bitchy... etc...etc... it doesn't mean I like live by it ok. And the conclusions that I come to aren't always good ok. I'm dumb aite?

I just got off the phone with Drew. =) Phone card died. =(

Basketball practice starts in 4 hours. I'm not excited cuz *Gasp* I've decided not to play for the school cuz it's not rite to the rest of the team who works there ass off while I sit around and wait for my dr. to fuckin release me. Who needs full ride scholarships anyway? *twitch*

AFS meeting at 7:15 aM. Fun.

British Isles Trip meeting during Channel One. Why do I feel like Amanda Dennis all of the sudden? Haha.

I'm not done with my homework. In fact, I haven't started. Fuck me. =( I left my FACS assignment at school. Gawd. Here we go... no college, ever.

I'm writing Jonathan an E-mail I'll probably end up printing and giving to him or maybe just talking to him before school tomorrow or something. Sounds like fun.

Since I know you're thinking I'm breaking the dating thing by that last comment -- Still stands and the day will end tomorrow with me still single. So anyone who had the 28th marked down... you lose. Haha.

I smell tuna and I swear to god it isn't me I showered. It's coming from my closet. Omg ew.

My wrists hurt. Corptal tunnel anyone?

Imma take Tyler home Friday. He bought me a keychain in Washington DC. What a cutie. If only he'd grow... geezuz... damn midgie.

Ok Gawd Ish time for Ni Nite.

Five recorded days of Singleism and counting...

*deep sigh*

Someone should ride the spirit bus with me to Knob Noster Friday cuz I promised Amanda n Morgan I'd ride it. Fun.

Everyone thinks my dad should buy me a Mustang, rite? Thought so.

Bye Bye.


"What's the easiest way to hurt a man? Give him all he's ever wanted."
^ Crap Yes.

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. . .wHATEVER rEASON tO lEAVE tHAT iVE hAD, mY pLACE wAS aLWAYS bESiDE yOU. . . [27 Aug 2001|08:48pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

Just updating to let everyone know I'm still alive 'n kickin and to give you some quick updates on what's been goin on... I promise I'll get around to giving a full rundown of the first two days and other important things after that... but for now...

Carrying on the tradition... The 2nd Anual OGHS Top Ten List...
10. Matt B. - Sophmore
09. Tyler H, - Freshmen
08. Billy C.. - Senior
07. Kellen G. - Sophmore
06. Derrik B. - Senior
05. Joe A. - Senior
04. Ben O. - Sophmore
03. Mark W. - Junior
02. Grant T. - Sophmore
and lastly. . .
01. Jonathan H. - Senior

As you can tell I have little to no <3 for the Freshmen and Junior class. I spit at you. Puy.

Last years, just for laffs... The 1st Anual OGHS Top Ten List...
10. Billy C. - Junior
09. Ben. O - Sophmore
08. Lance A. - Senior
06. Sean F. - Senior
05. Tyler H. (Papa Bear) - Senior
04. James B. - Junior
03. Jonathan H. - Junior
02. Justin N. - Senior
and lastly. . .
01. Garrette T. - Senior

Yeah, we've got some time on our hands. K thanx.

FiRST dAY qUOTES (You kinda had to be there for most...)

[.After Homeroom.]
Me: Grant, can you give Alicia something?
Grant: Sure, what?
Me: *rips huge bag out of locker* Here ya go!
Grant: *laughing way too hard*

[.First Hour.]
Mrs. Baur: ...Go forth and Screw.
Me: *'waking up'* Ween, what did she said?
Weena: That she's NOT telling us to go forth and screw.
Me: Nu uh she said TO go forth, stop lying.
Pepper: Horny all the time ain't cha?
Me: Only 23 hours of the day ok.

[.After First Hour in the Senior Hall.]
Jonathan: So, learn anything exciting?
Me: We got an assignemnt... to 'go forth and screw.' Wanna help?
Jonathan: *studdering* I..uh..I...wow.
Me: *laughing hysterically*

[.Second Hour.]
Melanie: She's so freaking cute!
Teddie Bear Teach: Excuse me? *he sounded like he couldn't hear*
Me: SHE SAID SHE'S SO FREAKING CUTE!
Teddie Bear Teach: Oh Jesus.
Me: You're welcome!

[.Third Hour.]
Senora Oeste': Oh! Es Senorita Josefina!
Me: Oh! Es uh...YOU!

[.Fourth Hour.]
Coach P: Ok, put your left hand on your head and your right hand to the side... and cock your brain.
Ben: You said a bad word.
Me and Kim: Um Mum Mum Mum Mummmmmmmm!
Jaramia: Can we bah like sheep again?
Ryan: BAAAAAAAAAAH!
Coach P: I thought y'all were Sophmores.
Me: Words written on paper can be verrrrry trickie Coach P.
Coach P: Obviously.

[.Lunch.]
((After him picking me up by the armpits))
Me: I think you broke my arm pits, J.
Jonathan: Ah, you don't need them anyway.
Derrik: All they do is stink.
Me: My armpits do not stink!
Derrik: Suuuuuure Bit.

[.Fifth Hour.]
Mrs. Jones: We'll be taking a trip into the writings of Shakesphere this year.
Me: *raising hand*
Mrs. Jones: Yes, Miss Hutchings?
Me: I get car sick easily!

[.Sixth Hour.]
Me: Mr. B, I can't really see from back here. *I'm blind, sue me.*
Mr. B: Oh Oh... Hasse's girl would like to speak.
Philip: OMG YOUR DATING JONATHAN?!
Me: *bright red I'm sure* No. . .
Mr. B: It's okay Bun, you can let your secret out. We won't tell.
Me: Bun?
Mr. B: Yeah, you know... you're Wenier's best friend and Buns go with Weniers.

[.Seventh Hour.]
Casey: HodgePodge... er, I mean... Mr. Hodges, Tracey and I are band nerd alumni.
Me: Yeah, HodgePodge... we'll be in big trouble if we don't go.
HodgePodge: Ladies your names aren't on the list...
Me: *sighing* Hodge, Hodge, Hodge... Mrs. J will eat us alive if you don't allow us to leave... then she'll come for you.
Casey: And the woman can sure eat alot.
HodgePodge: Okay... Go...
Casey and Me: THANKS! *innocent smiles*
((Note: Band Nerd Alumni wasn't really supposed to leave if you didn't catch that...))

^ Case you didn't notice... Casey and me are friends now... we figured with both of us having such madd skills (even though mine are kinda unworkable for awhile...in school sports anways) and both being so damn cute... we could do a lot more damage together then apart. And I think most would agree we do....'speccially ol' Hodge Podge.

172 School Days left... which means 172 School Days 'Til I Can Date although we may be terminating that 'rule'.

So, with Casey no longer an 'enemy' and Brook thinking she's my bestest friend -- All is kewl in TraceyLand as far as girls go. So far I've yet to piss any guys off... course the big babies of the class of 2001 are gone so maybe this year will be kewler eh?

SHORT SHORT CLASS RUNDOWN --
1st Hour - YAY.
2nd Hour - Amusing.
3rd Hour - Pure hell. Forgien Country ok.
4th Hour - Funnie as hell. Fave class. <3
Lunch - ROX OK. I hate it, but I like getting to see my friends that I never get to see otherwise. *sigh huff*
5th Hour - Hell again. Woopa Daisie.
6th Hour - I don't really like my teacher... but ish kewl. Easie Class.
7th Hour - Omg it kills me. HodegPodge. Lmao.

I miss the Seniors from last year... seeing them in the Senior Hall and talkin to them and all... and Jonathan's class is doing a suckie job keeping up with them. *pout*

I *sob* Don't want graduation for them to come though. *breaths* OK I'm out. I'll write more when I get the chance. latah.

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. . .oUT oF cONTROL n tHE wORLD jUST wONT lET mE sLOW dOWN. . . [22 Aug 2001|03:00pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

I printed off the E-mail Garrette sent me and laid there for an hour reading it over and over again and bawling. I don't want to hurt him, that's the last thing I'm aiming for... but I just don't feel the same for him. And what I found most upsetting about that is I can't figure out why not... aside from all the Drew feelings. But Garrette never faught with me. He got upset a few times, but it was totally understandable as to why. And Yea, he's hot. And he's funnie. And he understands most of what I say... and the shit he don't he just goes with it cuz he knows there no use in arguing about it. And I know if I was with him he'd worship me and be everything that I really need right now. BUT Behold none of that seems to matter. I just don't want him to hate me when I tell him I can't be with him... maybe if I run with the whole 'I can't do that to Brook' thing he'll believe that's all of it. *shrugs*

I had McDonalds for lunch. You're jealous.

This was almost pointless. But My eyez burn, so Imma go lay down. Latah.

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. . .nEVER tHOUGHT i wAS gUNNA lOSE mY hEAD. . . [22 Aug 2001|02:54am]
[ mood | depressed ]

Me: =*( GAWDDDDDD!
Jonathan: Ah, trouble in TraceyLand, are any of us really surprised?
Me: Jonathan please, you wanna be there for me then do it don't make a joke out of it.
Jonathan: You crying?
Me: =( I can't stop, It's been like this for 30 minutes Imma get Ooompa Eyes, I don't want Oompa Eyes help me. =(
Jonathan: What's wrong?
Me: Wrongness Number One --- IM from Drew...
Me: e: 'You can give me so many reaons as to why you should be with me, now give me one why you shouldn't and aren't.' <~ omg sad. cuz my heart was taken before u had it not been that way me n u would be together now and forever -=( i know that aint for or about me but there ya go -=(
Me: I didn't want an explination omg I was just quoting a movie, but yes let's make me cry cuz fuck I just don't do enuff of that right?
Me: Wrongness Number Two --- E-mail from Garrette.
Me: *throws up* I hate him so much gawd. I can't believe he'd do that.
Jonathan: Let me see it?
Me: Yea Hold on.
Me: Sent.
[Since you obviously cannot check ol' Jonfin's email... HERE....
Subj: I keep on fallin'. . .
Date: 8/22/01 1:24:23 AM Central Daylight Time
From:� � GARETTE'S E-MAIL GOES HERE NO YOU CANT HAVE IT CUZ I HATE HIM! *scoffs*
To:� � MY EMAIL GOES HERE NO YOU CANT HAVE IT CUZ I HATE YOU! *spits*




Well, it's almost 2 am and I should sure as hell be in bed since two a days
start tomorrow, but my roomate was playing some of his CD's earlier and he
played that one NSYNC song you were all freaked about, Selfish or whatever.
So, naturally I started thinking about you and I sat there and tried so hard
to make my thoughts go elsewhere, but that would have been much too easy. I
was doing good without seeing you all summer and just keeping our
communication to on here, but then last week speanding time with you and
seeing you smile and hearing your cute little voice and seeing you smile and
everything I just felt like things were getting back to where we used to be.
And I know I'm with Brooke, and as much as I care for her I cannot be with
her when I've got you on my mind. I know you're 16 and I know you've still
got three years of High School left to take care of, and I know I'm here and
I know you're there... but there's just so many emotions that rush over me
when I think about you. You mean everything to me, I really feel that with
you in my life it's better then it would be without. I know I don't get you
a lot Trace and I know it pisses you off, but you cannot deny that when
we're laughing and talking it's perfect. I love you and I know how hard it
is for you to say that to someone and there's no pressure and I understand
that you don't feel the same. And I completely understand where you're
coming from in everything... but I can't sit here and ignore this feeling
and always wonder how you feel and what we could have made out of all this,
yanno? Anyway, I'll be back over the weekend, call me on Saturday if you
wanna discuss this and I guess if you don't call I know your decision. Love
ya.

- Garrette -

Makes ya wawna throw up rite? Yeah, thought so... moving on.]

Jonathan: Why does THAT piss you off?
Me: because... and god please dont get hurt by this, he somehow is the only one who could get halfway through to me through all the drew stuff... he understands me better then the rest of you and i just yanno didn't wanna be confronted with this.
Me: i dont WANT anyone i wanna be alone.
Me: ive been more content being this empty bitch who doesn't let anything bother her then with a relationship
Jonathan: even drew?
Me: it was always ashley jonathan. it was never me. sure i mean a lot to him and he loves me, but i really somehow believe that that's always been where it stopped... maybe im wrong and id like to think i am but i dont know.
Jonathan: so what you're like done dating
Me: remember after me and jussin broke up
Me: how i closed myself off
Me: and was just like i dunno
Me: and then you hadda come along and it was all down hill from there lol nah im kidding
Jonathan: you really think running away from everything is gunna help at all?
Me: do you really think i need tyhis shit
Me: im 16 gawd
Me: i wasnt ever supposed to be in love i wasnt ever supposed to feel like this
Me: i used to have my priorities so stright
Jonathan: i really don't think you've gone as wrong as you'd like to think.
Jonathan: ive never really told you cuz i knew itd piss you off but i think we've reached a point where we can respect what each other says, and i really honestly dont like drew and its not because you like him over me.
Me: why not then. '
Jonathan: you're an emotional wreck tracey.
Me: gawd i kno =(
Me: but it's not HIS fault i came along after ashley
Jonathan: and it's not yours either and he's lead you on. you won't admit that and im sure he'd be pissed if he saw this and im sure you'll post this somewhere but i dont really care what he thinks, he aint my friend and i aint wrapped up in him.
Jonathan: and im not saying this ashley girl is better then you, but she's gotta have SOMETHING for him to pass you up cuz god tracey there's very few things id not do for you to even for a day think of me like you do him.
Jonathan: but ya know, you're smart trace and you know whats best for you more then i could ever try and help, so im sure you'll figure out what needs to be done
Jonathan: but just because you're hurting over him doesnt mean you've gotta shun the rest of the male population
Me: justin hurt me... but it was more my ego yanno? cuz i was like wtf gawd someone better then me? i think not. but with drew i can just oh gawd... its like sharp shooting pains throughout my bodie and gawd it sux.
Me: and as much as it does hurt and shit to realize he's gunna be with ashley for the rest of his life or whatever... i wouldnt change anything or the way i feel.
Me: cuz it was good to experience this yanno
Me: to feel this way about someone
Me: but i do kinda wish i woulda been older
Me: not saying it woulda been easier... its just i got so much going on now that i think it makes me take everything 5 x's harder.
Jonathan: what are you gunna do about garrette
Me: lol hell if i know. i aint gettin with him if thats what you're asking.
Me: i first off couldnt do that to brook... and second of all,even though he does mean some, its not enuff to drag this out. n he's in fukk where is he?
Jonathan: one of the carolinas
Me: oh lovely. anyway. yea he's there what kinda shit is that yeah ok hi you're 239048329842398 miles away but HEY let's have a relationship
Jonathan: ohhh and drew was so much different from that?
Me: id never met drew. there wasn't the detatchment process to go through with him, it started out as a detatchment
Jonathan: oh, that makes sense I guess.
Me: yanno im sure half of what ive said tonite makes no sense lol
Jonathan: still crying?
Me: im kewl.
Jonathan: that's a yes.
Me: shup lol
Jonathan: does it bother you that im with casey?
Me: i could pick out 239048239842390 different girls id rather see you with then her.
Jonathan: so it doesnt bother you that im with someone... just it being her
Me: yea
Me: but you obviously see something in her yanno?
Me: cuz you've gone back to her how many times?
Jonathan: lets not get into who goes back to people so many times little miss i cant make up my mind
Me: when did this all get so confusing
Jonathan: no shit. id give anything to go back to pre-school yanno
Me: fukk you you always put sand down my shirt asshole
Jonathan: lmao c'mon you liked it
Me: YES I LOVED going to the bathroom and having half a sandbox fall outta my pants gawd
Me: ive always been so abused
Jonathan: right
Jonathan: Wah, I was Valentine's Day Princess. Wah, I was Scrimage Princess. Wah, my parents buy me everything I want. Wah, people would pay to be friends with me. Wah, I have the greatest friends ever. Wah, I'm smart as hell. Wah, I'm sexy as hell. Wah Wah Wah.
Me: I wanna be Homecoming Princess first off. My parents do NOT buy me everything have you seen a laptop anywhere around? People who'd pay to be friends with me would be making a bad investment cuz you know as well as anyone what a suckie friend I can be. I do NOT have the greatest friends ever...I have a handful of ones I'd be lost without but the rest are just things yanno.
Me: There's 14 people in the Sophmore class smarter then me. Sexie as hell... shit can't argue with ya there.
Jonathan: who do you think will be homecoming princess for yall?
Me: Well, I'd like to think they'd change the rules just for me... but I'm sayin Courtney, Mattie or Staci.
Me: Hopefully mattie.
Jonathan: oh cmon staci is gunna
Jonathan: shes hot as hell
Me: Mattie is too! Plus she's nice.
Jonathan: what idiots are running for class offices
Me: Rowena (YESSS), Court, Luke, Ben, Chacy, Mel, Amber and Morgan.
Jonathan: who ya think will get the spots?
Me: Pres - Court, Vice - Luke, Sec.- Morgan, Tres. - Ben, Rep - Ween
Jonathan: not real confident on your friend are you?
Me: weena?
Me: fukk id say president but id curse her lol
Jonathan: swut you did with me right?
Me: yep lol
Jonathan: sure you didnt even vote for me did you
Me: You n Derrik. I don't like Casey obviously n Catrina did nothing but bitch all season... and the other, David or whatever... oh lets have a drunk ok? ok!
Jonathan: lol yea and i have to put up with that
Me: i was shocked Derrik didnt get it. i thought all the stupid girls in my class would vote for you n him cuz you were the better looking ones outta the ones running but obviously they dun like derrik lol
Me: ugh i just was closing the email drew sent me that ashley had sent him n she said he was her soul mate.
Jonathan: he didnt say it though
Me: eh.
Jonathan: yea sorry i stopped you from throwing a pitty party there.
Me: shuttup lol
Me: come over tomorrow?
Jonathan: well yea but why lol
Me: so we can freak... god jonathan what do you think? i needa play someone who can actually play before sammi rubs off on me and i suck.
Jonathan: rubs off on you on suckin in more ways than one rieght?
Me: thats meeeeean
Jonathan: well lol
Me: meanazz.
Jonathan: so do you have any clue what you're gunna do?
Me: im gunna speand this school year focusing on my grades
Me: and im actually thinking of deleting AOL n AIM
Jonathan: you could still talk to everyone on the server though
Me: yea.
Me: yanno that email i wrote n showed you?
Me: i never sent him that.
Jonathan: maybe you should have?
Me: I don't think I have it anymore
Me: and i feel like it'll cause problems if i do
Jonathan: does he not deserve to know how you feel
Me: he does... but i dont even know if thats how i feel
Jonathan: trace your so messed up
Me: i know
Me: ever think life would be so much easier if i was a whore? lol
Jonathan: unfortunately you've got too many morals and common sense for that, but empty sex deffinetly could benifit you. empty emotions is deffinetly the route you need to be takin for awhile babe.
Me: awhile ago you told me not to run from things! lets not give me mixed signals here jonfin i get those enuff dont cha think?
Jonathan: yanno what i mean. dont go hookin up with guys and shit. and babe please do not let me see a repeat of the sean thing. that was such complete shit i love you but that was just fucked up
Me: we aint goin there
Jonathan: kcool
Me: call my cell phone n talk to my voice mail im cute
Jonathan: lol
Me: im cereal jonfin!
Jonathan: really its probably best if i dont
Me: you're right i dont want a damn email from you later like garrettes
Jonathan: dont worry i wont add any extra chaos to your life
Me: chachos
Jonathan: whatever lol
Me: la la laaaaaaaa, you can get me the friends videos fro christmas ok? lol
Jonathan: aren't you planning a little early?
Me: if you buy em now then you wont have to worry about it later! plus you've only got 126 shopping days left.
Jonathan: oh god here we go
Me: hahahahaha.
Me: found the e-mailllllll
Me: i sux i sux i sux
Jonathan: if only
Me: COULD YOU NOT! lol
Jonathan: lmao sorry.
Me: i want mcdonalds
Jonathan: it's 2 am
Me: i dont care =(
Jonathan: dont become an emotional eater
Me: why
Jonathan: you'll become obese... not that it would matter what you look like but i know you'd go crazy lol
Me: haha you're right
Me: read this. tuff luck, he hadda be the one for me. he'll never be mine, that's what they all say. ill never be next to him, gunna lose this one. i say it's no use, so why try? that boy will never be mine.
Jonathan: whats that
Me: kinda sorta an nsync song but i kinda changed some of it lol
Jonathan: kinda almost perfect huh
Me: yulp.
Jonathan: be honest with me
Jonathan: do you really feel this strongly over him because of who he is or is it the situation that intrigues you
Me: you mean the whole there's actually someone i cannot have thing?
Me: yea that gets the best of me... but i do feel as strongly as i say i do for him, he means everything to me.
Jonathan: have you ever not been able to have someone
Me: aside from like famous people? lol nah seriously... no one ive ever wanted to get with has ever not got rid of the other girl or not wanted to be with me.
Jonathan: must be nice.
Me: must be a pain in the ass. there's never a challenge.
Jonathan: and with drew there is.
Me: no, with drew there's a losin streak. there's no challenge.
Jonathan: lol i guess you're right
Jonathan: does he know how many guys here wnat you
Me: i really dont talk bout yall much
Me: cuz i kno itd bother him if i did... and no offense but i dont think its really that important since i never feel the same, so yanno.
Jonathan: so he has no clue what hes missin out on
Me: he knows me better then anyone... and i guess hed rather fight with ashley and feel sad all the time then be with me. and that's kewl, im really working on this acceptance stuff,.
Jonathan: you think hes ever gunna not feel how he does about her
Me: he'll say so... but she's ALWAYS gunna be on his mind... there's no doubt he thinks shes the one.
Jonathan: that bother you?
Me: like i told him, i cant let this shit bother me. espessially with school in two days. im not going to walk into school and see all those fukkin judging people with oompa eyes and my paitence hanging by a string.
Me: and i have to put my feelings n all aside so i can be there as his friend yanno? and what good would it do to get upset? it wouldnt help the situation it'd make it worse.
Jonathan: see, now you're thinkin smart trace.
Me: i kno i rox.
Me: mmm brownie
Jonathan: And the emotional eating has begun...
Me: my metabolism is too fast for me to gain weight all i do is lose it its pathetic
Jonathan: now that you mention it, you eat like a pig when you're at home.
Me: i know isnt it great lol
Jonathan: you guys plan everything like three years before its there, so what are you doing for your 18th?
Me: westporrrrrtt yesssssss
Jonathan: oh clubbin. that's original.
Me: hey i WAS gunna go to chuckie cheese until krystin stoleded that idea
Jonathan: there's always kidzone lol
Me: no lol
Me: im leavin to orlando the 18th of july tho n i wont be back til like augest 14th.
Jonathan: you payin for all that
Me: pssht. riiite.
Jonathan: go fig huh lol
Me: yelp.
Me: i go nite nite ok?
Me: needa semi go to bed earlie lol
Jonathan: good idea
Jonathan: i'll call ya sometime after noon about balling
Me: aite
Me: latah.
Jonathan: yup

OK! Hi! What did I decide in any of that, Oh, nothing. Good one Trace.

Yanno what? Anyone remember when I was shy? lol Like so shy I hardly talked? Where'd that go? Omg I miss it now that I think about it. =*(

Guess who called me earlier? Philip. HEH. lol He wanted to play ball with me tomorrow, but at the time I wasn't in the mood to... plus uh, I've never played with him so he had to have something else in mind. *shudder* Smoker.

Okay Drew kept talking about the Remix video Dream put out and I never realized it was the damn song I was obbsessed with awhile back. I was like GAWD YES LETS LET EVERYONE ELSE LOVE IT TO CUZ I NEVER HAVE ANYTHING OF MY OWN.

I'm watching Boy Meets World tapes. Just so happens that I popped in the one that had all the Angela and Shawn break-up episodes on it. *sigh* Find me tissues.

Did I mention anywhere that I'm PMSing like crazie? lol Ok like I don't do that all the damn time, gawd. Mood swing after mood swing, it's great.

Damnit Imma go to bed, sooner I wake up tomorrow sooner the Oompie Eyes go away.

I wub yew n yew n yew n yew n yewwwwww mostest.

Yewr ok too.

Yea hi im on crack its kewl tho.

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